Hand Sanitizer Naman Dyan

Friend 2 is 25-years old, in a relationship with a 40-yr old guy, and goes to the same gym as I am. I'd like to say he's "committed", but the appropriate term would be "taken".

He asked me, one time, about a certain bathhouse in the city. I said I've been there. He knew about it and learned that guys his age or younger can get in for free.

He asked me if I can accompany him to that place.

A simple request can have complications. Sa sarili ko na lang. It's in my principle not to take someone to the baths. It's like influencing people badly. I remember convincing a person to sign up at Farenheit just to get in for free. I don't wanna be a like that to people, and making a negative impact by bringing them to a lifestyle they may stick to.

Pangalawa, friend ko yung partner nya. Sure, we'll keep it a secret. Yeah, he'll never know, this boy promised. And I am not really close to the guy. But would I be willing to be an accomplice of an unfair game to a person? No.

Simple lang pinanghahawakan ko: "do not do unto others what you don't what others to do unto you".

I guess a bad history of infidelity and lies has opened my eyes to these things.

Saka, justification naman ni boylet na matagal na daw silang hindi nagsesex. Kahit pa sa bakasyon at pag-iibayong dagat nilang dalawa, wala daw nangyayari. Bakit di mo simulan, mag-initiate ka, baka pagod lang yung tao. Makailang beses na daw nyang sinubukan, pero wala.

Well, is it a good enough justification to look for sex somewhere else? I insited to him to work things out with his partner first.

"So, sasama ka ba sa akin sa Lunes?"

Hindi ako makasagot


nang diretso.

Safeguard, Please

Sira na ang panata. Nakipaglaro ako sa totoy ko kagabi. Madumi na uli ako.

Since abstain ako sa sex with another person and the bathhouse, iba-blog ko na lang yung dalawa kong friendivas.

Friend 1: the bonggang late bloomer

Mid-thirties guy, just enjoyed the gay life. Ngayon lang (as in lately lang) sya nagkaroon ng booking kaliwa't kanan, araw-araw, minsan pa nga dalawa sa isang araw - with matching conflict or back up plan yata. Lander Veraperez look-alike, 5'11", and photogenic. Since he signed up for personal training, his face looked younger and fresher, and his body a bit toned (though he still has stubborn fats and flabs in the belly area). Delicioso. Al dente. Chos.

He has never gone to the baths and he has no intentions of going to one. He gets his catch from planet romeo, the bar, and the disco. He usually recycles, but there are days when he gets new boys. New as in first time nyang natikman and not necessarily virgins. He has so much physical potential. What more if he attains a really nice body, one to die for?

The downside is, he's getting more promiscuous everyday. And we don't even know if the boyfriend overseas knows about it. Feeling ko, pinasa ko ang korona sa kanya. Hindi eh. He made a new title for himself. Ang kasalanan ko ay kunsintihin sya.

Been there been that na ko sa ganyang tahakin sa buhay. Pero iba pala ang pakiramdam pag nasa labas ka ng sitwasyon at nakikita mo ang buong pangyayari, kesa nasa loob ka. Nakita ko kasi sarili ko sa kanya nung mga panahong nagloloko ako sa likuran ng lover ko. Nung time na yun, di ko na-realize na napaka-selfish ko. Na sarili ko iniisip ko at di yung relationship namin, lalo na yung mararamdaman nya pag nalaman nya ang tungkol sa mga kalokohan ko.

Nung time na attached pa ko, I wanted my "sexual needs" to be satisfied, kasi una tao lang at pangalawa I was in a long distance but exclusive relationship. Since hindi yun mapunan ng partner ko due to the setup, I had no choice but to look for it somewhere else. In the end, when my "needs" are met, I'd feel guilty and tell my friends. My friends, being friends, they'd justify that to me. For the sake of being transparent, I'd confess that to my other half.

Now that I'm single and I'm seeing these things again in my friend's situation, I feel guilty for condoning him. I'm starting to miss the old him when I first met him. Cute, chubby, pero innocent, behaved, and malinis. Not everyhting was mentioned in this entry, but some other (unmentioned) details are really not pleasant to air and it'd be unfair to that person - ngayon pang siniwalat ko na promiscuous sya, di burr?

Ang point ko, sana pag gumanda ka o maganda ka na, wag maging reverse ang lifestyle. Cherish the love that you have. Never destroy the love in your heart.

It doesn't also mean na pag single ka, mas may karapatan kang makipaglaro sa apoy. Apoy yan. Walang sinasanto. Lahat ay tutupukin nyan at papasuin. Nakamamatay.

I'm blogging about this kasi I just feel sad and it's all coming back to me like celine dion.

Coming up: Friend 2 - I'm not gonna make dala you to the bathhouse. I've done that before and I don't wanna do it again.

Penge nga ng safeguard! Chos.

Snowball Effect

Totoo ang kasabihang, "habang nagpipigil, lalong nanggigigil".

Penitensya ko ito para sa semana, ang pag-iwas sa laman at ang bahay ng kasalanan.

Parang blogging hiatus pala ito. Kalokah.

Samu't Saring Isang Kusing na Musing

Ang slow patrol ng internet dito sa office ngayon. (Reklamadorang kermit si Carrie. Nakikigamit na nga lang ng LAN, umaabuso pa. Tseh.)

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Tawag kasi ng mga alum sa isa't isa, gawa nang kami'y dating nag-aral sa panggabing eskwela, mga kapatid sa dilim. Iba na ang turing ko sa katagang ito pag nababasa o naririnig ko. Shoutout sa mga nagbabathhouse jan, mga kafatid ko sa dilim.

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Bakit takot ako sa pagbabago? Kasi, gawa na ang kama ng aking comfort zone. Takot akong gibain ito at baka wala akong matulugan. Figuratively and LITERALLY.

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Lumindol na naman daw sa Pinas. Katakot. Magyayabang na naman ang mga La-lers dito na hindi binabagyo at nililidol ang bansa nilang la-la-la. Kung meron mang sakuna dito, yun eh fashion sense at mukha nila! Haha.

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Nagkaroon na ko ng bias sa mga Indyano Gibbs. Ang sasama ng ugali. Kanina lang, nakakawalang-ganang magsepilyo kasi may booger wonderland sa gilid ng garing na lababo. Pihadong Pana (for indyan pana, kakana-kana) ang nag-iwan nun dun. Ang Pinoy, marunong namang magligpit ng kalat noh. Ang prejudiced ko, d b? Pero eto ka, wala ka nang ibang pagbibintangan kung ang ihing naiwan sa inidoro eh amoy curry. Ebidensya na yun ha!

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Wala akong madagdag na bathhouse entry ngayon. Hamo, gagawa ako ng eksenang ka-blog-blog. Charot.

Digital Karma

Ang karma nga naman digital na.

Nung naglalakad kami ng mga kaopisina patungong kainan, naibulalas ko lang naman na kung dala ko camera-phone ko, kukunan ko yung mga tumbong ng dalawa naming kasamang babae (na kapwa malusog) at i-upload ko sa facebook ang larawan at ita-tag ko ang iba naming kasama sa tanghalian, maliban sa dalawa. Alam ko, masamang biro, at di ko gagawin yun. Saka, matagal na rin kaming magkakakilala para magbiruan nang ganun.

Di ko inasahan na nung nakatulog ako sa bus pabalik ng opisina matapos ang kainan, nakunan pala ako nang panakaw. Ang kumuha’y yung isa sa mga babaeng kaopisina na biniro ko. Nakita ko na lang sa facebook wall ko. Buti hindi ako nakanganga sa picture. Pero ang akala nilang katuwaan, sa akin ay pang-aasar. Pikon-talo na ko. Pero di ko alam kung bakit ganun ang naramdaman ko. Samantalang may mas nakakahiya pang litrato ang nakapaskil sa website na yun, pero pinalampas ko lang. Dahil ba sa prinsipyong “di ko naman tinuloy yung binalak ko, bakit gagawin mo sa akin?”

So, tinanggal ko na lang yung pagkaka-tag ko sa picture. Hindi pa pala tapos ang katuwaan. Pinalaki pa yung photo para mag-zoom sa mukha ko. Kebs na ang caption, pero dun siguro ako napuno. Pero kung sa ibang kasama ko yun ginawa, malamang natawa na lang ako. Pero hindi ko maiiwasang mapa-iling, kasi alam ko na may tatamaang ugat (struck a nerve? Hehe). Hindi na ako yung high school na bata na matatawa sa kapintasan ng iba at magagalit pag ako na ang sapol. Natatawa pa rin ako sa mga birong ganito, pero alam ko na ang pakiramdam ng napapahiya. Pero kung sasalungatin mo naman yung pasimuno, away. Ayaw ko naman ng away.

Pero ang mas matinding digital karma ay galing sa isang nag-add sa akin.

Ang gwapo nya eh. I let my guard down because of that.

When I viewed his album, I saw my ex. They have a couple of pictures of their recent trip outside Manila. I can’t help to assume, but I have this hunch that they’re together already. Whatever our back story is, may the ending be good or bad, and you would know that certain feelings would come back to you. Memories come crashing through. And thoughts would barrage your mind, like shoulda woulda coulda barracuda.

Ang sikip sa dibdib, ate Charo.

Kung sinuman sa amin ang dapat maunang mag-move on at magkaroon ng bago, sya dapat yun. Saka, hello, Carrie, kasalanan mo eh. Nung magkasama kayo, niloko mo sya. Nakipag-jerjer ka sa iba sa likod nya. Nung break na kayo, a few months later eh may ka-fling ka na at binalita mo pa sa kanya. At recently lang, may ka-date ka. At kung di mo na natatandaan, tinext mo yan na may feelings ka pa sa kanya, pero binitin mo sya sa ere. Di ka na uli nagparamdam matapos mong guluhin yung nananahimik nyang buhay. Eh anong pinagpuputok ng tumbong mo? Ang selfish mo! Hayaan mo na syang lumigaya. Tapos na ang bahaging naging kayo. Hayaan mo na sya

I know that. Kaya si new-found facebook friend, ni-remove ko na agad sa listahan ko.

Hindi ako nagmamapait. Di ko naman alam na sila pala ni ex. Di ko rin alam ang intensyon ng taong ito. Kung meron man syang gustong iparating, madali naman akong padalhan ng mensahe sa FB eh. Di naman ako kelangang idagdag para lang masulatan. Ngayon, kung gusto nilang iparating sa akin na magkasama na sila, well and good for them. Masaya na akong malaman na masaya na sya sa isang taong talagang mamahalin nya at magmamahal sa kanya. Bagay naman sila eh. And I wish them happiness together.

Nagkaayos na kami ni girl officemate tungkol sa isyu ng litrato. Nagsorry na ko na di ko dapat naisambit ang masamang biro.

Di pa man kami nagkakaroon ng closure ni ex, alam ko masaya na sya at alam ko na rin na dapat akong mag-move on.

The Last Thing I'd Wanna Do

Crossed the line.
Almost.

Played with emotions.
Unintentional.

Cared for the person.
Volitional.


I don't have the heart to hurt you
It's the last thing i want to do
but i don't have the heart to love you
not the way you want me to

Second choice? Maybe.
Second time? Sure.
I was only the sex
in your non-sexual
relationship
with him.

Inside I'm dying to see you crying.
How can I make you understand.
I care about you, so much about you, baby.
I'm trying to say this as gently as I can.

I desired for you.
But you only wanted
my body.
Disposable.

'Cause I don't have the heart to hurt you
It's the last thing i want to do
But i don't have the heart to love you
Not the way you want me to

More than friendship
was what you sought.
Just bedbuddies
was what I thought.

You're so trusting and open
Hoping that love will start.
But I don't have the heart.
Oh no, I don't have the heart.

Blogger's note: musings from different hit-or-miss, trial-and-error situations in his life.

Damage Control

Kalurkey ang complication ng miscommunication among friends.

Friend A and B are in the worst terms and conditions applied. They became good friends, then bedbuddies, then enemies. Me and friend C are common friends of A & B.

Ako promotor ng dinner sana namin ni A & C. Play by ear si C, at si A ay nag-contingency na pag di natuloy, mag-gymnastics na lang daw sya.

The next day, B invited us for a movie, which conflicts with the dinner plan. Since libre at one-time offer na di pwedeng i-postpone, pumayag ako to B, eventually cancelling out with A.

I told A the truth, asked him not to get mad at me, and apologized. A accepted my sorry, but I felt he didn't take it well.

Then, I cancelled on B. I told him that I had dinner plans with A and ditched it for the movie. And I wanted to be fair. It may not make A feel better, but it may lessen the damage caused by the thought that I and C "abandoned" B.

Then I talked to C that I may have made 'damay' of him in the situation (kasi I told A that I am going with B and C to the movie). C doesn't want to go alone with B naman to the cinema. And after learning that I may attack the wet and sinful halls of the bathhouse, C suggested to me to go with them to the movies. Magkape na lang kami afterwards ni C with A minus B. C said he'll make lambing to A, and iron out the gusot. Akma namang mag-gymnastics muna si A, while I B and C are watching.

All was well that ended well naman.

Lessons learned:

1. Ang hirap ng damage control ng miscommunication. Mas mahirap din naman kasing magsinungaling o magtago ng katotohanan, at pag nabisto eh mas malaking pinsala ang dinudulot nun, db?

2. Wag nang mag-entertain ng ibang invitations from others pag nakaplano na ang isang bagay with a friend. Kahit pa may ibang pagkakataon na magsama kayo nitong kaibigan mo, di maiiwasang isipin ng tao na tinabla mo sya para sa kalaban.

Tao lang naman ako, natutukso ng libre. :-(

Pero eto ang di ko maintindihan, mas mauunawaan ka pa ng friend mo pag booking ang dahilan ng cancellation mo sa plano (at least in my circle, it happens). Pero pag enemy nya ang nabanggit, bakit ganun?

Bodyjam 52

Bodyjammers like me are anticipating the release of the latest Les Mills offer. So looking forward to the house warmup track, the sexy isolation single, the latin beats and the dark block, the groove down, etc.

Nang Nakawin ni Nonita ang mga Mamera sa Fontana

Shangina Magdayao! Jutanginah ! Unproductive na ako sa work. Pinaglalaruan ako ng musang itim koh. Imbes na magconcentrate ako sa trabah, sa blogging ako nakatutok. Heavens, please give me the cobra energy to finish work. Ayokong mashoplak sa presentation today! Huhuhu…

I saw “When In Rome (Feel at Home)” (parang when in doubt, throw it out, chos). Libreng palabas eh. Sponsored by Pennzoil. Hehe, so gorah-gorah ra ra ra sa event at natuwa naman ako sa napanood ko. Kung bayad ko yun, baka hinintay ko na lang sa video, hehe.

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/When_in_Rome_(2010_film)

Plot of gold: A successful and single Guggenheim art curator Beth (Kristen Bell) is at a point in her life where love seems like a luxury she just can't afford. Years of waiting for that perfect romance has made Beth bitter. One day, she goes to Rome to attend her younger sister's impulsive wedding. While there, she picks up coins from a reputed “fountain of love” (probably based on the Trevi Fountain). Almost immediately thereafter, she is pursued back to New York by a band of aggressive suitors whose coins she took, including a diminutive sausage magnate (Danny DeVito), a lanky street magician (Jon Heder), a doting painter (Will Arnett), and a narcissistic male model (Dax Shepard). Meanwhile, a smitten reporter (Josh Duhamel) does his best to convince Beth that true love isn't just a topic of fairy tales and romance novels.

What I like: Josh Duhamel. Walang anggulong pangit o film na nasasayang pag sya ang nasa eksena. Di ako maka-move on sa charm niya. Shitteiruto imasune!

Smell naman mine, oh. Charot.

What I hate: Yung jokes, gags, and rom-com clichés nya. Pero feel good eh, kebs na kung gasgas!

Muse Koh Naman!

Dun sa huli kong post, naikwento ko si friendiva ko na nakipag-date sa isang guy, who in the end dated and got together with another guy. There's an update.

Pangalanan natin si ex-date na Polo, kasi bulilit champion - he's short but cute. Guys like him have looks that overly compensate for their height. And the one he met while dating my friend is Dion. Reminds me of Celine Dion coz of the long face. Hampaet ko! And my friend, saint Yves, kasi santo sya for masochism and self-punishment.

In fairview, Yves found out that Polo met Dion on the day Polo was supposed to sleep at my friend's place, so he wasn't dating two people at the same time. It doesn't justify anything, but clarifies something lang. The day Polo stopped seeing Yves was the start of an engagement with Dion.

One weekend na nanahimik si Yves, nagtext itong si Polo: "Wer u?" Replywood naman ni yves eh sa kapilya lang, nagsisimba. Invite si Polo na magkita sila, na pinayagan naman ng friend ko. Wonderland si friendiva kung ano ang sadya ni Polo sa kanya. Nabuhayan din ng loob. Wala syang ibang inisip kundi makita si Polo. Baka balik-tambalan sila, why not, chocnut, boom-tarat? Little did he know na kasama pala si Dion sa pagkikita. Syempre ang assumption silang dalawa lang eh. The meeting was short but painful.

Gusto daw ipakilala ni Polo si Dion kay Yves. Shutanginanaman, bakit fa? Mamaya na ang reaction papers, tapusin natin ang short story.

Pagjuwi ni friend, nagtext na naman daw bandang hatinggabi si Polo. Inuman daw sila. Again, kasama si Dion. Di raw pwede ang mga ballur nila dahil gabi na or whatever. Alam nyo ginawa ni Yves? In-offer ang malay-balay nya. Inuman sila hanggang madaling-araw. A magnanimous decision that was.

Kinabukasan, text na naman si Polo from work. Di raw makapagconcentrate kasi naalala nya friend ko. Not in a romantic way. Out of concern. Alalahanin na baka sumasama daw ang loob ni Yves sa kanya. Wala namang nasabi ang friend ko, kundi magwork lang sya at kebs sa nararamdaman. Pero ang pagtatapat ni friend ay nasasaktan siya ng lubusan.

Sabi ko na lang, "Friend, pag nagkita tayo, magdadala ako ng kutsilyo, ako na papatay sa yo. Para di ka na ma-guilty sa pagpapatiwakal, ako na'ng aako ng responsibilidad". Natawa na lang sya. Pabirong sinabi na sa last will and testament nya, ibabahagi nya ang naiwan niyang yaman para sa one-year kong pagbabathhouse. Choz.

Gusto nya daw cremation with matching saboy of the ash sa Orchard rd. Charot.

It took a lot of open-mindedness and fortitude to get through my friend's situation. Call it martyrdom, desperation or plain stupidity, but for me it's being himself. I let him be, coz I know he can get through it.

Truth is, he's close to being 40, a bit overweight, and effeminate. Above-average looks. Yves acknowledges the fact that his market is narrowing. Gone are the days na he was still sexy and alluring and everybody wanted a piece of him. And now, when someone comes along to sweep him off his feet, and the guy happens to be interesting and cute, nonokia arte pa ba? It's not enough to condescend to him and say, "ate, maganda tayo." Mantra namin yan. But if you face reality, it hits harder than Maricel Soriano's signature slap.

But what I like about my friend, is his company, and how he makes me feel I belong to a sisterhood. Yves is machika. Oftentimes, he's the life of the party, so there's no dull moment with this fairy when we're on a night out. He has lots of friends, sobrang dami pati yata pati street beggars kilala sya (choz). He's very madiskarte sa buhay. Very funny and witty. I can confide my problems and find solutions and answers through his advice. Naglolokohan kami, but it's fun. Mas madalas, panalo yan sa booking. Sa mga kwento nyan, tinalo nya pa ang bathhouse explorations ko. Totoo. Mas magagandang uri kaya ang nabibingwit nyan kesa sa akin (syempre, bawal ang sharing, liban na lang kung nagkataon.) at libre pa kasi ganda lang ang puhunan sa planet romeo.

Madami pang nakatutuwang bagay kay Yves. You will appreciate him more for his vibrant personality and lively presence. He'll wait for the right guy who will love him for what he is. But for now, he's not hating or fleeing from anyone. He has gained my respect for his wisdom and graciousness in this life. He has found love in his heart even to the most depressing of times. He's a good friend. A dear friend. Close to my heart. May ate Karmi bring him good fortune, as he do good to others.

And the Uringan Award Goes To...

Nagpamigay ka na ba ng door gift habang nag-uuringan awards? Ganitey: ang presenter, si totoy mola (TM), at pinasok nya ang tropeo sa pwerta prinsesa mey. At ang dating iskinita'y naging bulwagang pambalitaan ng ABS-CBN.

Syet, db? Mabuti sana kung si Jay Manalo yun eh.

Ang nyarapei!

Kaso, sa sobrang sarap, di ko naman namalayang hinuhukay na pala nya yung ibang kanal sa loob ng Suez, kaya nung malapit na syang labasan, ayun. Akala nga ng ibang patron sa batis eh may naghuhukay na poso negro sa labas. Nasa loob pala ang salarin. Haha. Ewwww.

Dali-daling naglinis ang lola mo sa kahihiyan. Wala namang nakakita sa amin, pero kawawa talaga yung susunod na gagamit nung kwarto, o yung maglilinis dun.

No choice talaga, ning, bangenge ang isa at yung isa'y walang tulak-kabingin sa kargada.

Salamat sa hose na nagsisilbing bidet sa toilet. Sinasaksak ko yun sa pekpek ko para luminis. Ewww na naman. And you'll never look at the bidet the same way again. Hahaha.

Nag-comeback ang lola mo sa madidilim na lakaran ng bahay-batis. Nabitin daw si TM, at gusto pang umararo. Basa pa naman ang lupa, kaya dapat kalaykayin, ikanga. And so the show went on. Echos.

This time, Pacquiao ang lolo mo. Pound per pound, panalo! Pounding sya nang pounding like there's no tomorrow never comes!

Nang nagtapis na sya ng tuwalya, parang gusto kong magsindi ng yosi. Taroosh.

May isa pa kong nakamaryang-palad, este nakadaupang palad. At panalo ang huli. Isang Piolo-look-alike.

Weh! Hayaan nyo na ko, libre naman ang mag-ilusyon. Pero may slight resemblance naman talaga in all fairness. Lalo na pag nasa madilim ka, can you really tell the difference? Hehe
 
Hear me out naman. Paalis na talaga ako nun kasi nakuha ko ang pinakamalaking award. Kaso, makasipat ka ba naman ng cute at nagpakita ng interes, di ka ba papatol? Eh kung di mo na maabutan pang muli sa lugar na yun? Eh di remorseful ka pa.
 
Saka di pa naman maga eh. Choz!!!

At the end of the night, kahit palpak yung opening act, naka-redeem naman ako ng major prizes. Slut of the night at power bottom achievement award.

Dun sa mga down-hearted sa buhay nila, life bounces back. What goes around, comes back around. What was once up, goes up again. There's light at the end of the tunnel. Just like mine. Hehe.

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Pagpapasalamat: kay London_boy at Looking_for_Vince sa pag-add sa akin sa blog list nila. I should do more blogger EB's para lumawak ang readership kez. Echoos lang.

Dream. Believe. Survive.

A friend's FB status: You may have noticed by now that there is [lie] in "believe".

Gusto ko sanang i-comment: But, etymologically speaking, "believe" is from a proto-indo-european base *leubh- "to like, desire" (or love). The spelling of the word has evolved in such a way that there's a "lie" inside the word.

Let's not look at the "lie", but the "lieve" which is "love".

Saka, it doesn't have a root word, because it's not a compound term.

Ang seryoso, baka deadmahin lang. Or worse, burahin.

Miss Kitang Parang Luka-Loka

Reaction paper on Miss You Like Crazy movie

Warning: This is not a movie review, but a reflection of how I felt after seeing the film.

Baka may spoiler.

Basahin nang masira ang araw. Kebs.


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"Fate gave you a chance to be with her and you blew it."

The time: 2005. Place: Manila. There was an old man, Ulysses, who had a vision that Mia Samonte would meet a bespectacled guy by the river. He said that they were destined to be together on the 24th of January 2010.

Allan Alvarez met Mia Samonte in a "fateful meeting on board the Pasig River Ferry" (http://www.movienews.me/2010/01/miss-you-like-crazy-movie-trailer.html). He’s cute, a bit nerdy-looking, and kapita-pitagan. He's committed to Daphne Recto, his better half of four years. During that time, he's jaded. Being criticized by his girlfriend, hated by a colleague for reaping the benefits of an alleged nepotism, and other details I missed because of answering sms while watching it, he gets troubled. His meeting with Mia was not a love-at-first sight thing. She slapped him for saving her from an alleged suicide attempt. But they got together, and he develops feelings for Mia. It was a whirlwind romance, for they ended up having sex. Mia later finds out that he's attached. They talked to negotiate their relationship. But Mia ends up waiting for nothing, and flies to Malaysia to work and forget about the incident.

"Now that fate brought us together, there's no way in hell you’d get between us."

Allan goes to KL for a conference or training, with hope that he'd chance upon Mia in the city. And he did. This time, she works in the hotel where he's staying. Allan was persistent to get her contact details from her colleagues, but they couldn't allow him. Wandering in the city, and going to the park where Mia told him about the view of the Petronas towers, Allan visits the place to reminisce and there he saw Mia, who happened to try to escape him.

In another encounter, Allan learns about Mia's new boyfriend in the person of Mir (not sure of the correct spelling). Allan was not disheartened, but forces his way to win back Mia's heart. But he was pushed away by Mia's acceptance of Mir's marriage proposal. It appears that she used the engagement as a form of revenge to Allan for leaving her in the air. But deep inside her heart, she still loves Allan. Mir reaches out to his fiancé to make the relationship work, but Mia can't hide the fact that her heart and actions shouts Allan's name. In the end, Mir gives up the fight and sets Mia free.

Just when Allan was losing hope that Mia would not return, the prediction comes true in the nick of time. They're back in each other's arms after several grueling years of waiting.

"Mia: Masaya ako pag kasama kita. Allan: Ako din…"

The moralistic viewer in me took over to somehow negatively assess the story, but I still appreciate the production. I was also sort of “hyped” by the grapevine. Friends would say it’s as moving as, but more emotional than “One More Chance”. A blogger-friend Tristan (http://www.tristantales.com/2010/02/may-i-moment.html) even thought that MYLC was the sequel to OMC. It’s a box office hit, and lately I was impressed with Star Cinema’s line-up of recent good movies, that it heightened my curiosity to catch it on the big screen.

The moralistic viewer in me didn’t feel good about the first sexual encounter of Allan and Mia. But it happens in real life. What I’m trying to say, is that it didn’t feel right for someone from the outside looking in. There is obvious commission and omission. There’s hurting the main partners (who are supporting characters). And there’s subtle expression of how a mistake can be corrected by somehow incorrect means. Let’s just say, I can relate to the main characters for the cheating, but I sympathize with the supporting ones for facing the situation.

Personal note: I’ve been a cheater and I experienced being left by someone, either due to my cheating or other reasons. I greatly feel for those left behind because moving on is difficult. If rejection is already painful to me, I can imagine the pain of breaking up after years of being together with another person. And that notion fuels my fear of break-ups and empathy for the broken-hearted, may s/he be the abandoned or the fleer.

I just felt that Allan and Mia’s relationship was not good to begin with. And neither was it the expected ending for me. There were so many coincidences in the film, a lot of events that would make their paths cross. Given it was fate, would you personally break another relationship just because you thought you’re meant for each other in the end, as told by a prediction?

I’m not all against Allan and Mia’s re-union. Call me bitter, a non-believer of fate, and a sour viewer who was not moved by some of the film’s romantics. In all fairness, MYLC presents a story most of us can relate to. The production bills stars with huge charisma and acting prowess. And the entertainment value is fairly acceptable for a romantic drama.

Muse Koh!

Nakachika-minute ko yung kaibigan ko, at disappointed daw sya. He said that for some time, he was dating a guy who was cute, interesting, and interested in him. During the get-to-know period, nothing sexual happened; just pure conversation lang daw. According to him, things went well, until one night that this guy was supposed to sleep in my friend’s place. My friend called him, but he got no answer. The following day, the guy confessed that the reason why he didn’t answer my friend’s call was, he met another guy.

My friend was open-minded and ok with it. Hindi naman sila eh. My friend found out later on, that the other guy is one he was sort of stalking (coz these three guys live in the same area), and was working at the same place as his ex-date was. Pareho pala nilang sinisipat yung guy na yun, kasi magkaka-kapitbahay lang sila eh. In the end, si ex-date at si stalkee ang nagde-date na. Ok pa rin kay fairy friend ko. All is fair in love and war.

Eto ang anvil moment. Not because masakit sa ulo yung situation, but para kasing Bugs Bunny cartoon na parang nahulugan ng malaking bakal si Coyote while chasing Roadrunner. Tinanong ng friend ko kay ex-date kung kanino sya mas masaya. Di pa kasi nag-sink in (tama ba, o sync-in? Muse ko, tulungan mo koh!) sa kanya, so tanong lang sya kung ano yung nararamdaman ni ex-date.

Sabi ni ex-date, mas masaya daw sya sa new-found guy nya. Syempre, frustrated ang friend ko. Naka-relate naman ako. Kasi nung araw na yun sa batis, nakakita ako ng apat na kalalakihan, dalawang pares na gusto ko, pero ayaw akong makapareha. So, move on lang. Pikit-mata akong lumayo habang pumasok sila sa kani-kanilang kwarto para wag akong masaktan. In the end, may nakilala naman akong Burmese at Hongkongite. In the running for Ms ASEAN 2010 ito eh. Wala pa kong natikmang Aprikano, Autraliano at taga-NZ, kaya tabi na muna ang Ms Asia Pacific. Europeano at Amerikano, nasa listahan na rin, pero hindi pang-Ms World. Pag may naka-do na kong Marsian, Jedi, at Pandoran, ihanda na ang setro at sash ng Ms Universe. Echos! More like, Ms Universal Slut pala ini.

Back to the story, we learned there’s no point in crying over spilled milk. Nasabi ko na lang nang pabiro kay friend, “ikaw kasi, di mo pinapakilala sa amin eh!” He justified naman na in the past, ginawa nya yun, pero hindi sila nagkakatuluyan for some reason. He wanted to have a deeper friendship with the one he’s dating, before he introduces him to his friends. Agree naman ako dun.

“Kung ako ikaw, tinikman ko muna sana sya. Di man kami magkatuluyan, nalasahan ko na sya (parang putahe lang ba, echoos).” But he’d rather be happy for them and let go of the thought he’d ever see the guy again.

After that conversation, we had a good laugh being bitter and all. And it made my day.

"Miss You Like Crazy" Singing Contest

Star Cinema's most-awaited love team is back with the film that will shatter your heart to pieces before it redeems your soul. "Miss You Like Crazy" is a film helmed by Cathy Molina-Garcia, and stars John Lloyd Cruz and Bea Alonzo. In line with the movie's release, we are launching a singing contest to the public. Presenting the contestants to the "Miss You Like Crazy" singing contest:

Contestant #1: The Moffats


disqualified from the contest for singing the wrong song.

Contestant #2: Anton Diva


Contestant #3: La Diva


Contestant #4: Natalie Cole


Click here for the other performance


There you have it, folks. Our contestants for the "Miss You Like Crazy" singing contest.

See you again next time for another singing tilt when a new flick comes out.

Wasn't It Good

Cute guys. Funny intro. Broadway music/Diva song. Good arrangement. Perfect mix in a performance. I love it.