Monday, April 11, 2011

Slapped

(composed in July of 2010)

"Kung di ka nya kayang pagkagastusan, hindi ka karapat-dapat!"

Pak! Harshness kung harshness ang delivery.

May dalawa akong kumare na appreciate na appreciate ko ang points of view. Parang angel sa kanan at angel sa kaliwa lang ang dating. Yung angel locsin ko, was supportive of me pursuing my guy. In fact, we called ourselves Mrs (insert the last names of our boyfriends-who-never-were). Haha. Well, I stopped pursuing him. I decided to drop it off sa kanto ng EDSA at mag-drive palayo at manirahan sa bulubundukin ng Baguio.

Yung angel aquino ko, aka Vera, slapped me with reality. True enough, there's truth in what she said. Toink.

"Kung di ka nya kayang pagkagastusan, hindi ka karapat-dapat!" Umalingangaw yan sa kamalayan ko. Sabagay, my guy deserves better. I don't need a relationship with someone else for the meantime. Charlatan. I was all along infatuated with the guy. It wasn't love. It was obsession.

Ganito pala ang nao-obsess, kalokah.

I need to enrich my relationship with myself for now. I've been hard on myself lately for nothing.
 
I know you guys are tired of reading/learning about this from me.
 
Tungkol naman sa nasabi ni Vera, may point naman sya eh. If the guy doesn't make a move, it tells you that you may not be worth the while. I'm not referring to coming up with fancy dinners or fabulous getaways. I'm talking about the simple things: catching a movie, spend some time chatting at the coffee shop, or hear sunset mass on a weekend. I guess, it was clear to me that he's not that into me.

Anyway, life goes on for Carrie.

Kahit pag nababanggit ang pangalan nya, kumikibot ang puso ko at may luhang gustong kumawala sa gilid ng kanang mata ko.

Kasi I miss him.

Kahit binibiro ako ng kaibigan na, "I thought you're getting there".

Kasi I'm just getting by.

Kahit overrated ang cyber hugs at cyber kisses from cyber friends.

Kasi I need them.

Kahit naglilitanya ako nang walang kamatayan, nagagawa kong makausad sa buhay.

Kasi nandiyan kayo. :)

16 comments:

  1. lecheng last line.... artistahin ang potah!

    well, iba ang getting by sa getting over... you simply had to move on somehow. kung kailangan mo pa ng ibang beckies in singapura, you tell me and i will give you a thousand contacts from universal pic-chers!

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  2. impeyrniz, echuzerang froglette ang last line! ;)

    *akap ng mahigpit*

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  3. eto oh... kahit overrated... HUGGGGG! hihi

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  4. awww! ikembot lang yan teh, namnamin mo ang hinagpis na dulot ng pagmamahal kasi at least napatunayan mong nagmahal ka ng tunay.

    *hugs*

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  5. hoy gehl! ang tagal na nating hindi rumampa sa t pagar. game ka ba this weekend? lezgo!

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  6. nawala ata comment ko...

    my dear caridad, tinamaan naman ako dun, on both receiving ends.

    *yakap mahigpat*

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  7. Na laging nagmamahal,

    Ang iyong mga blogger readers.

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  8. LOL @Kiks
    Teh 2010 pa toh. E ngayong 2011 ang ganda ganda mo

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  9. Mareng Kiks, thanks. Naka-get over na ko :)

    Mike, Rowell, Ternie, and Nimmy - *hugs back*

    Red, he's too nice a person to be treated that way

    Mksurf8, di ako pwedeng lumandi eh.

    Mugen, salamat :)

    Orally, mas maganda ka, teh :)

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  10. Charitoooooooo!

    Sige na nga. Tawagan kita! haha

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  11. 2010 was not for you but it looks like 2011 is.

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  12. Yehey! Single na sya...wala ng haharang sa pambababae natin sa SG sa May! Char! hahaha

    Haaayst pero ramdam ko ang sakit, kaya yan! Next please ;-)

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  13. Naluha ako sa kanang mata. Panu ka ba i comfort mamita? mwah

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  14. @iurico, go lang. hinihintay ko tawag mo.

    @guyrony - oh yes, this year looks better than last year

    @JR, :)

    @ay, DH, kelangan nakaganyan ka (avatar pic) habang hinahagod ang aking kipay, este likod habang ako'y umiiyak. Char!

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  15. teh!! smile ka na dyan. eto ang power huuuug! :)

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