"Kung di ka nya kayang pagkagastusan, hindi ka karapat-dapat!"
Pak! Harshness kung harshness ang delivery.
May dalawa akong kumare na appreciate na appreciate ko ang points of view. Parang angel sa kanan at angel sa kaliwa lang ang dating. Yung angel locsin ko, was supportive of me pursuing my guy. In fact, we called ourselves Mrs (insert the last names of our boyfriends-who-never-were). Haha. Well, I stopped pursuing him. I decided to drop it off sa kanto ng EDSA at mag-drive palayo at manirahan sa bulubundukin ng Baguio.
Yung angel aquino ko, aka Vera, slapped me with reality. True enough, there's truth in what she said. Toink.
"Kung di ka nya kayang pagkagastusan, hindi ka karapat-dapat!" Umalingangaw yan sa kamalayan ko. Sabagay, my guy deserves better. I don't need a relationship with someone else for the meantime. Charlatan. I was all along infatuated with the guy. It wasn't love. It was obsession.
Ganito pala ang nao-obsess, kalokah.
I need to enrich my relationship with myself for now. I've been hard on myself lately for nothing.
Tungkol naman sa nasabi ni Vera, may point naman sya eh. If the guy doesn't make a move, it tells you that you may not be worth the while. I'm not referring to coming up with fancy dinners or fabulous getaways. I'm talking about the simple things: catching a movie, spend some time chatting at the coffee shop, or hear sunset mass on a weekend. I guess, it was clear to me that he's not that into me.
Anyway, life goes on for Carrie.
Kahit pag nababanggit ang pangalan nya, kumikibot ang puso ko at may luhang gustong kumawala sa gilid ng kanang mata ko.
Kasi I miss him.
Kahit binibiro ako ng kaibigan na, "I thought you're getting there".
Kasi I'm just getting by.
Kahit overrated ang cyber hugs at cyber kisses from cyber friends.
Kasi I need them.
Kahit naglilitanya ako nang walang kamatayan, nagagawa kong makausad sa buhay.
Kasi nandiyan kayo. :)
