I'm On A High, Mahayhay

I was writing this while I was on eklavarva. Yes, nakiuso ako kay iurico sa PnP entry nya. Ayokong magpahuli kaya naki-ride high ako sa in ngayon - ang magpaka-bangenge.

Bakit ako nag-ecklavoo? Ganito kasi yun, I was a tad bit depressed-depressan and I made halungkat on my dresser for something to swallow, since I cant find a man's cum.

Stresstabs, witit. Myra, witit. Ascorbic, witit. Solmux chewtab, waley. Orange pill. Hmmmm...

Nakilala ko sa g4m long ago yung nagbebenta nito. Yung former booking ko eh mahilig sa Mahayhay fun vacation. Eklavich, Krista Ranillo, at Balitang K ang tinitira namin para ma-access namin ang roller coaster ride na mas matindi pa sa Battlestar Galactica o Reverse Bungy thrill.

Tinalikuran ko na yun. Thing of the past. Tapos na chapter na yun. Di ko alam na may remnants pala, parang horcrux lang ng nakaraan ko. The only way to destroy it was to swallow it. Ning, $40 paano mo sasayangin?

Pero nakuha ko yun nang libre. Si booking nagpabili sa akin ng epektos at ako'y kumupit ng ilan at tinubuan pa sya sa benta.

Ako na ang Devil Incarnacion.

Ganun na lang takot ko nung nabalitaan ko yung mga binitay sa Tsina.

Anyway, si orangeina ay dapat talaga ini-enjoy sya sa maingay at mataong lugar, hindi sa pag-iisa sa kwarto. Para tuloy akong baliw - ang saya ko pero I dont have anyone to share it to. Nanlalamig ang buo kong katawan, at naghahahanap ako ng kayakap at kahalikan at kachukchakan, pag ganitong napaka-sensitive ng katawan ko sa kaunting kanti ng haplos at hagod ng kamay. Ewwww, self molestation.

Anyway, Macapagal highway, I decided to call a blogger friend overseas. Gusto ko lang ng kachikahan in the middle of a sleepless night. Nakailang jack and beanstalk na ko, dugo na lalabas sa akin pero di pa rin ako makatulog. Pinipigil daw ang ejaculation, tseh! Mind over matter. Napipiga ko pa yung bagong gawang modtax sa ratsky ko eh. TMI na. TMI.

Kinumusta ko si blogger friend. He has this situation with a girl, but things didnt work out. Okay na daw sya kay pechay. Since we were talking, he remembered a dream of his that he dreamed of the other night, with daylight saving time. Nag-scooby doo daw kami. Sabi nya, hinipan daw nya ko (blow). Hinipan ko din daw sya. At sa huli, kinangkong nya ko sa talbos ng kamote.

Sobrang ewww naman ako, like nandiri with matching shrieks and squeaks. High pitch na tinalo ang whistle blow ni Mariah.

Nagkita na kami nito sa Pinas once, and that was last year pa. This blogger friend is a brother to me. The thought of doing it with him is far fetched.

Bloger-friend:"it's just a dream. no big deal."

Me: "Ah ganon. No big deal pala. Ganyan lang naman ako sa mga lalaki eh, no big deal! Wala lang pala ako sa yo, tseh!"

Biglang naglabasan ang mga bagaheng nawala ng Cebu Pacific nung naglakbay mulang Manila to Singapore! Hahahaha!

Inaway-away ko kuno si blogger friend. Pero chika lang yun. Of all people, bakit ako pa mapapanaginipan nya? And of all dreams, yun pang sexual. I know this blogger friend to b straight (or so I think he gets it on with females - charing lang, friend, kung nagbabasa ka, I'm sure you're straight), God-fearing, and serves a lot in his community.

So, really, it's no big deal to him. I even began to psychoanalyze him by asking him what he felt when we were doing it. He said nagulat daw sya. Yet, the dream went on. Take note, hindi daw sya nilabasan. To which I replied na "eh hindi naman ako hot para labasan kayong mga lalake. Hindi naman talaga kayo nilalabasan sa akin." Hahahaha, Yumaman ang airline sa overbaggage ko. Potah!

Mga ilang echusan pa ang naganap at kinumusta ko naman sila ni pechay. Di naging maganda takbo ng mga pangyayari sa kanila ni Depechay Mode. So I told him na lang na he should get over it and move on. If the girl still communicates with him, just reply casually without furthering the conversation. That way, she wouldn't feel he's bitter about their situation and at the same time she wouldn't feel he's still needy or clingy or whatever. Yeah, it's normal to be bitter at first, because one would feel disappointment, frustration, and upset feelings after things don't work out. But it is mature to be civil to the other person.

The great irony of life - galing mong magbigay ng advise, sarili mo di mo matulungan sa situation mo. Haist. Ibang storya na yun. At the time of this writing, O and Mksurf8 may prolly be revelling in the clubs. I had to stay indoors. Magagalit ang jowa.

Yes, may jowa na ko. Happy weekend!

Slapped

(composed in July of 2010)

"Kung di ka nya kayang pagkagastusan, hindi ka karapat-dapat!"

Pak! Harshness kung harshness ang delivery.

May dalawa akong kumare na appreciate na appreciate ko ang points of view. Parang angel sa kanan at angel sa kaliwa lang ang dating. Yung angel locsin ko, was supportive of me pursuing my guy. In fact, we called ourselves Mrs (insert the last names of our boyfriends-who-never-were). Haha. Well, I stopped pursuing him. I decided to drop it off sa kanto ng EDSA at mag-drive palayo at manirahan sa bulubundukin ng Baguio.

Yung angel aquino ko, aka Vera, slapped me with reality. True enough, there's truth in what she said. Toink.

"Kung di ka nya kayang pagkagastusan, hindi ka karapat-dapat!" Umalingangaw yan sa kamalayan ko. Sabagay, my guy deserves better. I don't need a relationship with someone else for the meantime. Charlatan. I was all along infatuated with the guy. It wasn't love. It was obsession.

Ganito pala ang nao-obsess, kalokah.

I need to enrich my relationship with myself for now. I've been hard on myself lately for nothing.
 
I know you guys are tired of reading/learning about this from me.
 
Tungkol naman sa nasabi ni Vera, may point naman sya eh. If the guy doesn't make a move, it tells you that you may not be worth the while. I'm not referring to coming up with fancy dinners or fabulous getaways. I'm talking about the simple things: catching a movie, spend some time chatting at the coffee shop, or hear sunset mass on a weekend. I guess, it was clear to me that he's not that into me.

Anyway, life goes on for Carrie.

Kahit pag nababanggit ang pangalan nya, kumikibot ang puso ko at may luhang gustong kumawala sa gilid ng kanang mata ko.

Kasi I miss him.

Kahit binibiro ako ng kaibigan na, "I thought you're getting there".

Kasi I'm just getting by.

Kahit overrated ang cyber hugs at cyber kisses from cyber friends.

Kasi I need them.

Kahit naglilitanya ako nang walang kamatayan, nagagawa kong makausad sa buhay.

Kasi nandiyan kayo. :)

Puki Song

Magpo-post sana ako ng rant entry today. Pero kulang ako sa negative vibes para maglabas ng sama ng loob. Nung binahagi ito ng kaibigan ko sa Facebook, natuwa ako kaya't ito na lang ang ise-share ko. May transcript pa. Enjoy!



Lyrics:
Ang puki ko na kulay rosas

Namumukadkad pag hinimas-himas
At ang namumulang talulot
dinadaluhong ng mga bubuyog.
Kapag ako'y nalilibugan,
tumitihaya kahit sa lansangan
At ang bawat makakita,
agad-agad akong pinapatungan.
Iniiyut-iyut-iyot
ang puki kong makipot
Namumula't sariwa
Namamasa ang hiwa
Tigigund-tigidung-tigidong
Nagsalsal na si Dudong
Wala nang makita
ang butas ko at kweba.
Ganyan ang dalaga
Lalo pa't merung regla!

Choserang Tanong

Guys, pag ang monthsary friendsary ninyo ay pumatak ng 31, ano'na petsa ang sinusunod ninyo sa buwan ng Pebrero at yung mga buwan na hanggang a-trenta lang?

Thanks sa mga magrereply. :)

photo credit here: http://i244.photobucket.com/albums/gg14/edzcel/monthsary.jpg

Umaarte

Roses are red, violets are blue.
This day's almost over, I wanna end it with you.
But if you're busy and unable to go,
I know you're with me, and will always be my 'beau'...
 
~Carrie~
 

 
photo credit: http://media.photobucket.com/image/love/xsoxdamnxcleverx/photography/kissing-1.png?o=6

Que Sera Sera

I ended up in another blogger's bed. Everything was a blur as I passed out.

All I remembered were Chijmes, lots of red wine, cute caucasians and asians, and live band. I was with Bien aka Orally aka Ms Pouting Lips of Seduction aka size queen 2 of Singapore (who by the way complained about Java man's weenus - laglagan na), Peter (who found out about my and Bien's blogs, thanks to the queen's laptop), Mksurf8 (who is flying to Manila the following day), my ex-officemate (who was shocked by my outing last time - walang pasabi eh sinayawan at nilandeh nang nilandeh si Peter sa harap nya) and the rest of the Brady bunch.

For the whole story and the rest of the details, tune in to orally's blog.

So, there I was... empty piece of a shell, minding my own world. Without even knowing what love and life is all about... Choz!

I woke up with a massive headache. The blogger was on the other side of his king-sized bed wearing shorts. And only shorts! Natulala ako. Nangilid ang luha. I feel violated. Charot na maharot!

Hahaha, checka lang. Nung pinagmasdan ko sya, ang sexy nya. Sarap gapangin. Hahahaha!!! Sanay na kayo sa kakatihan ko. Keri na.

Maraming salamat sa hospitality mo, mksurf8. Never pa naman akong sumuka sa maling lugar, at ang ganda ng condo mo para dumihan ko. Grabe, ang puti at ang linis ng place mo, at pakiramdam ko, ako lang ang dumi dun. Hahahaha! Sinalo mo ang pekpek ko. Ang panata ko nung gabing yun eh uuwi ng alas-onse. Nauwi sa umaga. Pagkauwi, naghanda na ko para sa work.

Pero super fun.

Indak-y

It's been a while since I heard from Ms Braxton. The singer of "Another Sad Love Song" and "He Wasn't Man Enough" is out with Make My Heart - which will be part of the Body Jam release 54 track list. I dunno if this has become a hit yet, but the groove and feel of this song is just infectious. A happy song I would wanna play on my iPod in a loop. My shoulders couldn't help but move to the music while composing this post. Lurvely!



Lyrics courtesy of www.directlyrics.com

http://www.directlyrics.com/toni-braxton-make-my-heart-lyrics.html

VERSE 1: You pull me close/ I get this kind of reaction yea(everywhere)
Can you feel my pulse/ My heart is beating faster yea(from this love affair)
And it would be only you/ Talking in my ear/ Your lips are so beautiful/ Ooh I want them near
Your eyes, they undress me/ Don't make me confess it/
The things you make me do/ Guess now i'm outta control


CHORUS:
And you make heart/ You make me dance, sweat out my hair(ohoh ohoh)
Go flying out, flippin in the air(ohoh ohoh,make my heart)
Get pumped enough/ Comin outta my clothes(you know you do it for me yes you do) oh oh(make my heart)
Dum dum dum dum dum/ Dum dum dum dum dum
(Make my heart) Dum dum dum dum dum/ Dum dum dum dum dum...Woooo!


VERSE 2:
Adrenaline rush/ You whisper I get sucked in here(Ahh looked here)
My heart bangs like drums/ The sound of pure seduction yea-ea-eah(Ooh, take me there)
And it would be only you/ Talking in my ear/ Your lips are so beautiful/ Ooh I want them near
Your eyes, they undress me/ Don't make me confess it/
The things you make me do/ Guess now i'm outta control

CHORUS:

And you make heart/ You make me dance, sweat out my hair(ohoh ohoh)
Go flying out, flippin in the air(ohoh ohoh,make my heart)
Get pumped enough/ Comin outta my clothes(you know you do it for me yes you do) oh oh(make my heart)
Dum dum dum dum dum/ Dum dum dum dum dum
(Make my heart) Dum dum dum dum dum/ Dum dum dum dum dum(make my heart)
Dum dum dum dum dum/ Dum dum dum dum dum
(Make my heart) Dum dum dum dum dum/ Dum dum dum dum dum(make my heart)

BRIDGE:
Oooh you made this woman, have a break-a-down in my heart(REPEAT 3 times)

And you make my heart(ohoh ohoh)
And make my heart(ohoh ohoh)
Make my heart(Get pumped enough...Comin outta clothes)
Make my heart(The ones that fall, drop like dominoes)
And you make my heart
Dum dum dum dum dum/ Dum dum dum dum dum
(Make my heart) Dum dum dum dum dum/ Dum dum dum dum dum(make my heart)
Dum dum dum dum dum/ Dum dum dum dum dum
(Make my heart) Dum dum dum dum dum/ Dum dum dum dum dum(make my heart)
Dum dum dum dum dum dum dum dum dum!

Love Ko Na Sya

White guy singing Parokya ni Edgar's "Buloy". I thought the twang was somehow cute. I cringed very few times, but for the most part it makes him adorable and makalaglag-something. Hahaha.

Enjoy the vid. Happy weekend, readers. :-)

Back to Basics

Multi-tasking bonanza ang tema ng linggong ito. I'm finishing programming tasks at work, catching up on my blog list, reviewing for upcoming interviews, preparing for a presentation, and blogging. Kung mga bolang crystal ang mga nabanggit, para na akong nagsi-cirque du soleil sa desk - with matching somer sault at one-hand balancing stand sa chair. Bunggang bunggang bungalow!


Naisip ko na ring isulat ang blog entry na ito. Kasi, sa tinagal ko dito sa trabaho, sobrang malala na ang comfort zone ko at bumaba na ang learning curve ko sa field dahil routinary na ang lahat ng ginagawa ko. Hindi rin naman ako nabibigyan ng bagong gawaing-bahay at pakiramdam ko eh hinhintay na rin akong magpaalam.

Na-realize ko rin na madami na akong nakalimutang konsepto na kelangang balikan at aralin. Mga bagay na ginagawa ko pero hindi mo na maalala kung ano ang tawag. Palibhasa, napalitan na ng mga terminong sex, blowjob, felatio, sixty nine, sauna, anal, at kung ano ano pang bagay ang laman ng brain cells ko. I need to refresh. I need to get back to basic knowledge.

Kung dati, ang motto ko sa buhay ay "pwede na itey". Ngayon, ang mantra ko, "don't settle for anything less."

Malapit na rin ang isang maikling bakasyon.

Game Time

Bored ako sa work, at walang mai-post. So, mag-post ako ng guessing game ala words with blogger friends.

How fast can you guess these words? Guess and time yourselves, my (handful of) readers.



1. BOO_S

2. _ _ NDOMS

3. P_N_S

4. F_ _ K

5. PU_S_

6. S_X

Despite the Despicable

As I think about the question of whether I'd choose someone who likes me over someone whom I like, or the other way around, I just wished I'd find someone with mutual sentiments.

Yung previous relationship ko, my ex loved me more than I loved him. I ended up taking him for granted. I ended up cheating behind his back. I ended up manipulating him.

This time, I think I like the person more than he likes me. Ikanga ni Mugen, ang unang magsabi ng "I love you" ang talo. He once teased nga "Mahal mo na ko, no. Sabihin mo nang I love you." To which I replied, "I'd like to. Actually, I love you na". Ampotah, Marymount School for girls lang.

"... but I wanna say it in the right time... And isn't it much sweeter if the other person replies back with the same?" Not that I was expecting it; just stating an ideal. OK. I was kinda expecting it.

Oo na, graduate na ko ng Assumption batch 1970, at heto pa rin ako ngayon. Set aside nyo muna ang judgment. Marinate for 24 hours, ok?

Looking back at the time I said that, I think I laid out everything on the table.

Last weekend, I caught "Despicable Me". I went to see it alone, kasi gusto kong malibang. Gusto kong lumihis ang isip ko sa taong kinahuhumalingan ko. In the end, hindi ako nalibang. Nabowang lang ako sa nangyari sa akin. Cry me a river ang soundtrack ng pelikula. Crayola oil pastel talaga ang tema ng araw. It was because of this little girl named Agnes in the movie. She was the girl with the doll unicorn.

This is how I loved Agnes, and how she made my eyes well up. Despite the despicable appearance of Gru, Agnes the little girl embraced him and never let go (she was hanging on to his leg during the time Gru picked them up to be brought home). She was excited, more than the other two girls Margo and Edith. In another scene, when the doll unicorn was disintegrated, she didn't throw any tantrums. She held her breath and passed out (or so it seemed) until Gru gave in. When her doll was replaced by a sloppy improvisation of her favorite toy, she did not complain. She even said it was beautiful.

She was the perfect example of pure, innocent love. She was the innocence that vanished in my heart long, long time ago.

Agnes broke my heart into a million pieces. I loved her more than the cute yellow minions of Gru in that movie. Agnes' character looked through the eyes of love. And I wished I had that innocence, the vision through love, and the heart of the pure. No matter how much she loved and lost something, she never lost the love she had in her heart.

My soul, my heart, my self are very wounded and jaded. My emotions are much attached to the material, to what is seen and felt, and not to what is essential. I have obsessed myself on someone I barely know, someone I almost opened my heart and soul to, someone who I feel and suspect doesn't care much about me.

Syet, sumerseryoso ang tono ko. Nag-eemmodium na naman ako.

Anywhoo, my friends and my readers have supported me and have given me advice to get over this emotera and pathetic state. Ang hirap, but I'm trying.

Ano na nga ulit ang point ko? Ah! Short term amnesia, kumusta ka?

If I'd choose someone who likes me over someone whom I like, or the other way around, I wished I'd find someone with mutual (and equal) sentiments. But that's impossible. Either one of us would have a greater passion for the other. One would have a greater obsession over the other.

Yun lang. May mai-blog lang. Choz.

Paano ba maging ikaw, baklang cockroach? Yung tipong aabot ng 500th monthsary ang episode ng buhay?

"Headline Fail"

A friend of mine on facebook quipped that "Reuters is not immune to headline fail". Any better titles for the article below?

Tired Gay succumbs to Dix in 200 meters

(http://www.reuters.com/article/idUSTRE6622I420100703)

Oregon (Reuters) - Olympic bronze medalist Walter Dix edged out Tyson Gay in the former world champion's hotly-anticipated return to the 200 meters at the Prefontaine Classic Diamond League meeting on Saturday.



In the 110 meters hurdles, American David Oliver recorded the fourth fastest 110 meters hurdles of all time with a 12.90 second run.


Gay, who has been battling a nagging hamstring problem for seven weeks, ran his first 200 of the year in 19.76 seconds to finish just shy of Dix, who took control coming off the bend and stayed in front to win in 19.72.


"It wasn't bad, but I was a little fatigued toward the end," Gay said. "I tried to stay relaxed and bring it home, but it wasn't enough."


Dix, who won the 100 meters and placed second at the U.S. nationals last weekend, said his race experience had helped, "but I'm a little beat up, too."


"I was a little sloppy out of the blocks, but I was able to hold on," he added. "Tyson gave me great competition."


Oliver, the Olympic bronze medalist, equaled Dominique Arnold's national record with his second consecutive lifetime best. He ran 12.93 to win the U.S. championships last Sunday.


Only world record holder Dayron Robles (12.87) of Cuba and China's Liu Xiang have run faster.


"I didn't get a great start but I brought it home," Oliver said.


The American left countryman Ryan Wilson (13.16) well behind in second spot.


Jamaican Veronica Campbell-Brown, the Olympic 200 champion, surprised a talented 100 field with a personal best and season-leading 10.78 seconds to leave her thinking she might double at next year's world championships.


Olympic 100 gold medalist Shelly-Ann Fraser trailed in 10.82, just ahead of American Carmelita Jeter (10.83).


Three other season-leading marks were set.


American world champion Christian Cantwell used a last-effort throw of 22.41 meters to win the shot put, and world indoor 800 meters champion Mariya Savinova of Russia clocked 1:57.56 to beat Olympic 1,500 gold medalist Nancy Langat of Kenya at the shorter distance.


Sudan's Abubaker Kaki added a fifth season-leading mark when he took the infrequently run 1,000 meters in 2:13.62.


Kenyan Olympic 1,500 champion Asbel Kiprop just missed another when he won the mile in 3:49.75.


Olympic long jump champion Irving Saladino of Panama pulled a mild surprise as he used a wind-assisted leap of 8.46 meters to beat U.S. world gold medalist Dwight Phillips (8.41).


Brazilian world indoor gold medalist Fabiana Murer also came out on top, winning the women's pole vault over Polish world champion Anna Rogowska. Both cleared 4.58 meters. U.S. world leader Jenn Shur failed to clear a height.


(Editing by Tony Jimenez/Ian Ransom)

Technical Difficulties

Friends, thank you for the messages and comments on my emotional diarrhea. I have two more drafts in the works, but I decided to defer posting them. I agree with Soltero na mahirap ma-BJ sa kwartong may Winnie the Pooh wall painting. Chos. Pambihira ka, soltero, pinagana mo imahinasyon ko.

My three formidable enemies now are: my past, my insecurities, and trust issues. But I'll deal with them without blogging much about them.

Di bagay ang emotera sa aking blog, o ang sobrang pag-iinarte. Tama na muna ang igiban ng luha.

Anyhoo, blogger.com was experiencing system error churva. Some of the comments could not be published, like kay Nimmy, dabo, kiks, and soltero.

Pasensya na mga friends.

On the lighter side, I wanna thank Bienvenido Lim aka orallyours, for pointing to me "The Story about the man who didn't believe in love". Thank you, Migs the Manila Gay Guy for sharing that wonderful, wonderful story. Naluha ako sa first five minutes pa lang ng narrative. And the whole piece was moving, very insightful, and very enlightening. At dahil dyan, I bought the whole volume of The Four Agreements by don Miguel Ruiz. Hehe.

Thank you, my friends, for the supportive messages and comments to my whining and lamentations.

Monday was an interesting day for me. I was in my usual emotera mode. I messaged Bien and he was free naman to meet up. At nagkita nga kami. We had a short but fun chat. It's nice to meet a blogger na based dito sa Zingapura. Bien, all the best. Definitely, we'll see each other again.

Pagkauwi ko naman, I called my guy, ate Guy. We had the usual casual conversation. Gusto nga akong sampalin ni Bien, kasi sabi ko sa kanya, pag di ko nakakausap o nakakatext si guy, down ako. Pag kausap ko na sya, parang ang saya-saya ko uli. Pag baba ng telepono, down na naman ako. Lukaret lang, db? It turns out that all the emotional episodes of that day were all brought about by my baseless assumptions and suspicions. I thought he didn't call last night because he didn't have as much liking as I did. When in fact, he thought I would be calling him and he was waiting for me to call. Toinks! And yesterday, because I was trying to "detach myself from him", he thought I wasn't in the mood for correspondence. So he gave me some space to cope with myself. Taena, ginisa ko ang sarili ko sa sariling kong Baguio oil.

At the end of the day, nakausap ko sa chat si Eternal Wanderer. Nakakasilaw ang busilak, dalisay at mayumi nyang pagkatao... sa webcam. Hahaha. Echos. Di kami nag-web-cum. Wala daw akong kwentang kausap. Nag-aadjust lang naman ako sa kausap ko eh. Hahaha. Joke-lang bading! Peace tayo, mare. Nakakatuwa kang kausap. Di na to mauulit. Hahahahahaha! Charing.

Happy Hump Day, everyone!

Emmodium

"I think, for a relationship to work, dapat pareho kayong masaya independently of each other, but you choose to be together kasi pag magkasama kayo, mas masaya, mas meaningful ang buhay." - Got 2 Believe


Dinale ni Dominic Ochoa ang puson ko. Este, nadale ni Dominic Ochoa ang dapat kong malaman sa panahong ito na nag-e-emoterang baklita akesha.

Dapat masaya ako with myself. No one must complete me but myself. My future partner would be there to make me happier and not sadder when I don't feel his presence.

Di ko na dapat bino-blog ang mga bagay na ito, but this is for my personal reference when I need to be reminded not to be too emotional with the person's absence.

Carrie, you are happy now because you are starting to bring order to your life. Maintain that order, live simply and happy, and most especially learn to trust people and not get ahead with baseless suspicions.

If one day, Carrie, you have not heard from the person and not seen him on a weekend, do not get melancholic. Hindi ka na highschool! Kurutin kita sa singit dyan eh.

Pictures

Nag-aayos ako ng kwarto kahapon. Maghapon ang effort, pero ang sarap ng pakiramdam na malinis ang paligid at minimial ang gamit. At the end of the day, I went to hear mass with my guy, ate Guy. After that, we had dinner and coffee and a nice conversation (gaya-gaya puto maya kay Ternie, hehe). I took some pictures which are safe for work, except for one, I think. Hehe.

Wholesome ang kwarto ko. May painting pa ni Tigger at Pooh, db?

Kumpleto sila, pati si Eeyore at Piglet

Trip lang. Haha

Mga supling namin ni ex. I called him "gummy bear", and me unbearable. Choz.

Ondoy relief goods (Bago mag-ayos ng kwarto)

I threw away most of the clutter and my "kids" are happy in their new home.

That Thing called Spark

I was googling "how to tell a spark" and the world wide web returned hits like "how to replace spark plugs", or "how to tell if a spark plug is not working".

So I rephrased my search to 'spark of love'.

The first hit was I think covered my question on sparks of love - Do you think that the "spark" of love begins as a physical, emotional, or intellectual attraction?

http://www.answerbag.com/q_view/403857

Answer - the spark of Love starts with the emotional...the spark of interest would be physical
http://www.answerbag.com/q_view/403857#ixzz0sCZyHPTw


This particular reply made me, "ah, ganun pala." Ignoramus? Hehe.

Some netizens say it's physical, some say the spark starts with the physical, physical, I wanna get physicaaaaal (let's get into physical!) debbie gibson just possessed me. And so, the exorcism of emily rose.

Some commenters believe that the spark of love starts in the intellectual level:

For me, attraction begins at an intellectual level. If you don't have anything substantial to bring to the table - stimulating conversation, life experience and maturity - then I don't have time for you.


In 99% of my relationships, I have been friends with my partner before beginning a sexual relationship with them. I guess it could be construed as emotional as well since I tend to care more over time.

I've always said the way to my pants is through my head and I am very blessed that I found a man who stimulates me on ALL three levels.
http://www.answerbag.com/q_view/403857#ixzz0sCbXRXps
 
Others say they get the spark in the emotional form.
 
I personally experience the spark of interest as a first step towards connecting with the person in an intimate level. Physical attraction is a factor, but doesn't hold as much weight as the intellectual aspect of the spark. I believe there's also an emotional side to it - the mixed feelings of happiness and anxiety when you think about the person or see him/her.

Dear readers, where do you think the spark of love starts on your side?

missed connections

I was supposed to go to Kuala Lumpur or KL some weekends ago, but the plan didn't push through. I even "announced" it on facebook, stating I wanna go to the Malaysian capital and Genting (since they say it's cold there and perfect to tour on a summer period), but never happened.

One day, I posted this status on FB:

~Carrie~ is in hybernation mode.

Friend 1 said: kala ko b kl ka?

a few minutes later, friend 2 commented:

~Carrie~ is in hybernation mode.


Friend 1 said: kala ko b kl ka?

Friend 2 said: tol, bakla ka?


Kelangan pa bang i-retain ang comment ni Friend 2?

Pumapalong Pasasalamat

Thank you - iamcockroachboy aka Nimmy for the wonderful header. I now call myself the potpourri blogger. He made this to blend with my flora avatar. This is part of the layout design change na very manly ochoa, very butch anson roa, at very discreetly color-coordinated. Haha, char!

My heart skipped a beat when I saw Nimmy's work. It was exquisite. It was perfect. It describes my life as a mix of blooming things and drying stuff. Echos.

Nimmy, thank you for the banner.

Thanks also to the ones who added me to their reading list. :-)

The Emasculation of Krung Krung

I saw this video last year, and I got impressed how this guy nailed those notes with ear-splitting falsetto. His pitch is wire-walking between rockstar and gay comedy bar singer. The high notes are really hard to vocalize for a man's range, but this guy managed to pull the act off.

Ano'ng dinadrama-rama mo jan???

Ex added me in his YM list today.

Me: Kung in-add mo ko para sumbatan ako o awayin ako, please stop na.


Me: Hirap na ko sa huling away natin.

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Ex: Di. I added you as technical consultant. (aka F1 help)

Me: Ah, ok.


*Toink*


Me: Cge, kung kailangan mo ng tulong sa technical na aspect, ok lang.

Ex: Busy ako ngayon.

Me: I see. Bye for now.