I missed twelve calls during my workout. One was from my mom, and the rest from an unknown number.
When I called mom, she said the family's fine, but they didn't call me several times. Then she said F was asking for my number, and he's probably trying to contact me.
I read F's message before I called my mother. The text said he'll be a consultant in a big company. I was glad to receive that message.
F is an ex, who after our breakup, shut me out of his life and later on added me in again as a friend, only to be unfriended again in the end. But you can't blame him.
I was the one to blame for the incident.
I called F to say hi.
Me: "Nabasa ko yung text mo. Congratulations on your new job."
F: "Natanggap akong consultant. Ito kasi yung dream job mo para sa akin, kaya nung nakuha ko ito, ikaw unang sumagi sa utak ko."
Me: "I know. And regards to G (his bf of several months)".
F: "Okay. Kinakabahan ako kung kakayanin ko yung trabaho. Hindi kasi ito on-the-job training. Sasabak ako agad sa trabaho..."
Me: "Kaya mo yan. Bilib naman ako sa yo eh."
F: "Pero sabi nila, di naman mataas ang expectations nila sa akin, basta alam nila na may kakayahan akong gampanan yung trabaho."
Me: "That's good."
And we talked for a bit more, before I bid him goodbye.
It got me confused, wondering. When I got home, I called him again.
F: "Bakit po?"
Me: "Mag-uubos lang ng load. Mag-expire na kasi eh."
F: "Ah. Sa tingin mo, mahirap yung consulting? Wala akong experience sa ganyan eh."
Me: "I'm sure ite-train ka naman ng kumpanya."
F: "Yun naman ang sabi nila. Tutulungan naman nila ako sa ginagawa ko eh."
Me: "Bakit mo ako in-unfriend?"
F: "Well..."
Me: "Akala ko kasi we're in good terms. Tapos, one day wala na ko sa list mo."
F: "I had to remove you. Ayoko makita ka. Naalala ko kasi yung mga stupid decisions na ginawa ko noon. I'm in a difficult situation right now. Siguro, I'd want to focus on this new chapter in my career."
Me: (after a momentary silence) "Gaano na kayo katagal?"
F: "Mga six months na."
Me: "Bakit wala ka sa puder nya?"
F: "Weekday ngayon. Gusto nga ng mother nya na dun ako ako palagi eh."
A loud beep came in, signaling my balance is low and the conversation may get cut.
Me: "I need to hang up. Mauubos na load ko. Thanks for taking my call."
F: "Ok. Bye-bye."
I couldn't find a single song in my ipod to go with my solace. I only played whatever sad song was available for listening. I let out some sadness and tears before I fell asleep.
